Thursday, November 19, 2009
expect less so that you won't hurt that much when you fall.
she knows she can't trust him much. because he doesn't know that she likes him.
my heart.make it wholly Yours.
she knows she can't trust him much. because he doesn't know that she likes him.
my heart.make it wholly Yours.
what we could have been, 5:43 PM.
the mask of pretence that i'm fine.
wished i could tell people to go away and don't talk to me, i'm not in the best mood to talk. but that's just a selfish act isn't it?
the regrets, guilt and perhaps condemnation of doing something that you shouldn't feels horrible. if i could turn back time, i would not do it. even though it might hurt. but at least, i don't feel bad towards them most imptly not to Him. i'm really sorry Lord. help me, because i can't do it. i really can't. Father, help me. it hurts. it hurts. it hurts.
& i give up my heart to say, i need You so.
wished i could tell people to go away and don't talk to me, i'm not in the best mood to talk. but that's just a selfish act isn't it?
the regrets, guilt and perhaps condemnation of doing something that you shouldn't feels horrible. if i could turn back time, i would not do it. even though it might hurt. but at least, i don't feel bad towards them most imptly not to Him. i'm really sorry Lord. help me, because i can't do it. i really can't. Father, help me. it hurts. it hurts. it hurts.
& i give up my heart to say, i need You so.
what we could have been, 5:54 AM.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
she runs because she wants to fit into his category. she's hoping that he will like her too. she gets upset when he don't call. she gets worried when he falls sick. she likes him but he has no clue.
recently, she went running again knowing that her knee has yet to recover. she wants to prove that she can still run, so that he wont't call her useless anymore. because that hurts her. she didn't see him in church today, and didn't go out too. though she once thought of ignoring him for the whole night, but her heart totally failed her when skype rang. she answered it and there, they started talking.
she was in a bad mood, but he just kept disturbing her and soon she blew her top. she felt the pain, but he understands. he was just so nice.
maybe this shouldn't happen, she is trying to control it. and she tells herself not to ask him out, because she needs to guard her heart for now.
in that secret chamber, she fears that all these might just be an illusion to her.
recently, she went running again knowing that her knee has yet to recover. she wants to prove that she can still run, so that he wont't call her useless anymore. because that hurts her. she didn't see him in church today, and didn't go out too. though she once thought of ignoring him for the whole night, but her heart totally failed her when skype rang. she answered it and there, they started talking.
she was in a bad mood, but he just kept disturbing her and soon she blew her top. she felt the pain, but he understands. he was just so nice.
maybe this shouldn't happen, she is trying to control it. and she tells herself not to ask him out, because she needs to guard her heart for now.
in that secret chamber, she fears that all these might just be an illusion to her.
what we could have been, 10:12 AM.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
I wanna find You near
I need You to take away all my fears.
ONE more paper. then it will be the end of promos.
it's been so so so tiring and finally all these will be over. but what awaits after this will be the results of all that had happened so far. and all has already been decided.
fear creeps into her heart slowly, while she struggles to keep her mind on Him.
you're hot then you're cold,
you're yes then you're no.
I need You to take away all my fears.
ONE more paper. then it will be the end of promos.
it's been so so so tiring and finally all these will be over. but what awaits after this will be the results of all that had happened so far. and all has already been decided.
fear creeps into her heart slowly, while she struggles to keep her mind on Him.
you're hot then you're cold,
you're yes then you're no.
what we could have been, 10:09 PM.
